What a year!!

Well, as many of you know, Ava turned 1 on Sunday!! I can't believe I am a mother of a one year old. How did she grow up so fast? The past week has been a major reflection time for me. I have gone through a very painful time this year, as many of you are aware of, due to my family situation with my parents. I can never explain or try to define my exact feelings that I have gone through, but I can say that I have never been in a deeper valley than I have been in this year. I have truly lost a piece of myself this year. I have turned my back on God completely to where I have no desire to pray or attend church. I have continued to attend church, of course, but never really allowed the Holy Spirit to work on my life. I just felt like God was gone. It felt like he left me for a while.
The past month has been a time of deep self reflection for me. I read two amazing books, The Shack and Redeeming Love. I think God used those books to bring me back to Him. What I realize, through my reflection, is that God has been by me the whole year. He blessed me with the most beautiful baby girl in the world. I remember the first time Ava made eye contact with me one night in the hospital. She was about a day old. Paul was sleeping and the nurse brought her in to nurse. She didn't want to eat, but she wanted to just stare at my face. I cried my eyes out and remember specially thinking, "God gave this amazing gift to me." I remember praying that I would always strive to be the mother that she needed and that God would give me strength to be her mother even in the most difficult circumstances that life may bring. I had no idea at that moment what God was preparing me for.
I look back now and see that God was always there with me. He showed Himself to me in Ava's smiles and giggles, in Paul's warm hugs when I was sobbing many nights and had to get up for work the next day, in my many friends that give me words of encouragement and smiles. God was there, walking beside me and holding my hand when I couldn't stand up on my own. He gave me strength to teach some days when I didn't feel like waking up and living in the morning. He used me to reach out to kids, even when I was going through an extremely difficult time. What I am learning now, is that through everything I've been through, God was always with me AND still had a purpose for me. My purpose now is to be a Godly wife and mother to my family. God has blessed me with a husband whose faith is greater than mine. I am thankful that God has used Paul to bring me comfort and security when I didn't feel like I had any.
Lately, I have been telling people that God knew I couldn't handle having a hard baby to take care of. He knew I needed a baby that would make me laugh so hard I cry, and a baby who brought me the greatest joy just looking into her face. If I had a rough baby this year, I might be in a mental hospital, I say that jokingly, but it is very true!!
My point of this is that the Bible talks about how even in the most difficult circumstances of life, God is there to guide us. I didn't believe that for a long time, but I do now. I also have realize that God did not cause any of this to happen, but He has used it to bring me close to Him and His will.
Thank you everyone who has been on their knees for me and my family this year. God is always good to us. I am so thankful for each of you in my life.
~Brooke~

Super Bowl night and Ava playing!

On Super Bowl Night we went to our friends, Amanda and Shane's, house. They have Judson who is 11 months. Elicia has Tristan who is 6 months. It was so much fun! The kids played with all of Judson's toys. They had a great time!

Here we are with our babies. Last year at the Super Bowl Party we were all pregnant together. Here is a picture of that:

Here is Ava in a few cute pictures. She loves to sit up and play with toys now!

These are her maracas that she loves!

Ava playing

Ava is already 7 months!

Hi, everyone! We are so excited to be starting a blog for our family. Ava is growing so fast and I thought this would be a fun way to keep everyone updated on our lives. Paul has just gotten a promotion and work and is still trying to learn the ropes of the new job. It is pretty intense!

I went back to work in October and thought I was going to die, but I adjusted to it finally. I love my class. They are very hardworking and we love to joke around together. I am still teaching 4th grade, which I'm pretty sure is the best grade to teach! I can't see myself leaving this grade for a while. They are so fun to teach!

Ava had a horrible double ear-infection this past week. The antibiotics are finally kicking in. I think she is also getting her top two teeth, but we'll see...

She is the greatest joy of my life! She loves to giggle and smile and talk to us. (some times her talking sounds like screaming. I think she just loves to hear what her vocal chords can do!)

We are so blessed. I think everyday about what a wonderful blessing she is. We know that raising a child is a huge responsibility that God has given us, and we are so thankful to be apart of raising this child of God.

This is Ava after church one Sunday.

Ava loves eating peaches! This is my mom, Ava will call her Mimi, feeding her

Alana is our neice, and her and Ava are two peas in a pod! They just love playing with each other already!